Holy crapper, things are going badly.
I think that I am absolutely addicted to food as a means to make me feel better. But the problem is, it doesn't. Or, if it does, the reward is so fleeting, only to be replaced with remorse for eating something that will make me feel worse in the long run.
I was doing really, really well for a couple of weeks. Seems like I haven't been able to go more than two to three weeks raw without having some kind of "situation" where food is necessary to cover up my feelings. So, I'm eating whatever I want because I feel like crap, and it's terrible because it's making me feel like more crap! I really want to be raw because I know that it makes me feel good, and it addresses all my nutritional needs, and will eventually get rid of all my health problems. BUT. Why can't I do it? I have to start over again! And I don't think I can do a "transition" diet, because even if I eat a little bit cooked, then everything is okay to eat, and I end up not eating anything raw and only want to eat salty, fatty, starchy food. Like chips and popcorn.
Ugh. I'll start again tomorrow. Everything will work out, eventually.
If anyone reads this, here is a question: How do you avoid junk food when you feel like you want it? When you KNOW it is the wrong decision? What are some tips to stay raw when it is inconvenient to do so? Thanks :)